Oh yeah, I vanquished the Spring semester two weeks ago.
I got A's in each class I took this time! Definitely makes up for the poor grades of the Fall semester. I've got a 3.63 GPA now.
Not too shabby, considering the Fall semester dropped me down to 3.45!

Now I am just sitting around finding things to make myself busy with while waiting to start a Summer internship with University of Maryland's Aerospace Department. I made many great contacts there while working on the Balloon Launch project. Eventually it led me towards a paid internship with them. I have a feeling I will be back to HCC in the Fall for a final semester. After which I will be transferring to University of Maryland to finish off my Computer Engineering degree by 2012. Not sure what my plans are after that, but I have a feeling I will just continue on for a Master's degree somewhere else -- probably Austin, Texas.

I've also gotten back in contact with a special lady recently. I missed her something fierce! ;)

Sleep time!

lol, sometimes I still read this stuff in awe:

This is what bothers me so much about evolutionists.
And I’m sure Evolutionists and Creationists look at each other the same way - they think the others are morons.
It’s as if all evolutionists have intelligence but no wisdom (common sense).
DS how can you honestly believe in evolution as the reason we’re here. Ever seen a sunset? Smelled a flower? Listened to a bird?
One HUGE problem I have always had with Natural Selection being the reason of us being here is this - Nature without a God has no power to choose, and is incapable of looking to the future.
It acts on the spur of the moment based on its current environment.
And yet, this limited process is supposed to produce marvels of biological complexity and diversity that far exceed the capacities of the best human designers, such as the bacterial flagellum?
How can you honestly believe that these things (including the flagellum, just ONE example) are here by random chance?
Intelligence but no common sense…

After my logic class, I can finally see all the non-arguments flowing about in this paragraph. Ho hum. :(

yay, i like how things are working out

I'm done pacing myself. I need to get out of my little comfort zone. I've been holding myself back. I destroyed things that would eventually work themselves out. I created chaos and hurt where there was no problem in reality. I was the problem. I couldn't sit tight and be patient. I couldn't just let the leaves blow where they might. And now I struggle with this feeling of losing something special. But did I ever really have a choice? Was I ever given a chance?

Will things ever be cool between us again? Or is it just me? Am I holding onto guilt?
Question after question, yet none of it has any meaning.

I don't know what I want, and I don't think I will ever know how life should be lived without destroying things. Destruction is a creative process. The ying and the yang, from nothing comes something, without something, there could be nothing. 

What if I ranted like this forever? Jesus.

I haven't updated this lately. Mainly because I have a Facebook now, and this has become kind of redundant. I feel more connected over there. But maybe I'll keep this going, who knows! :)

If you want to find me, use my email address. electrodev AT the google mail dot com

Things are going good. I'm going to the memorial at my ex-religion on thursday, ha ha!

Piano song! Allegory
This song got stuck in my head when I was trying to practice for my piano lessons. Had to stop and make this song before it ate me!

Float around to my new song, and I guess the start of my next album, Ambia, what I hope to be a purely ambient dive through a blue ocean. >_>

I know, I know, I'm done discussion on the evolutionary debate, but I recently had a rather one-sided argument with my father on it.
I asked him what benefit he gains from disagreeing with scientists due to his religious bias.
Pretty blunt wording I might say, but, it was an important question.
What benefit do you gain by disagreeing?
A great benefit -- if its by someone who is trying to learn new things, or unravel a set of evidence to try and understand it for yourself, perhaps even to the point of breaking new scientific ground.
Yet, this is not the naysayer's mindset. No, instead, it is purely a bias based on no material grounds. I don't expect everyone to believe in natural materialism, but it does beg question your education in this day and age.

A while ago I realized a very subtle point about the evolution "debate".
From the get go, the only reason there is a debate or even a doubting opinion about the foundation of evolution is because of religious bias. If a book had said anything else against other scientific theories, say oh, that the Earth is flat, or that the Sun orbits around the Earth, there would surely be other debates. But since "we've" been able to orbit around the Earth in space, I think that pretty much broke down any debates on that front. The kicker with the evolutionary debate is mainly an education problem. Evangelical children, for instance, are usually homeschooled or taught to have a strong bias against learning about the evolutionary theory in public schools. It's sad, and wrong, as it was when I was taught that Universities, Colleges, Evolution, and Scientists were all bad places, ideas, and people. I'm not really sure how I felt about that personally, I can remember a few times just smirking at such judgment even as a kid. Never actually understanding what was wrong with the theory. Even theistic evolution is better than what I had. Most things in general -- are processes that requires no bootstrapping, and we are finding that out as new observations are made around us, whether it be stellar, galactic, solar, planetary, civil, economic, and so on, things change, and things go about their daily computations based on their internals and surroundings. Nothing actually needs that extra nudge by a God, it happens because it happens.

As of yet, the creationist front has not created a proper scientific position of doubt against evolutionary theory, all that comes to hand are simple "Goddits" and "Nu uh!"'s.

Like the rest of reasoning humans (I know, that sounds awfully humble!), I can happily say the evidence is speaking for itself in these matters; if it didn't, I say off to better things. Science grows through doubt and incorrect hypothesis, not "dogmatic institutionalized truths". Sure, scientists are biased towards the evolutionary theory, but that's because it is what the evidences is leading them to believe.

What our creationists fellows in general believe is exactly what they say cannot happen.
"I've never seen something come from nothing." -- Yet, they wish to believe God zap things into reality with supernatural magic. Hmmm!

Happy late holidays, my peoples. I've been so busy.

Some things I learned over this last year:

I honestly don't believe Jesus existed
But mainly due to the saturation of history
Personally, It doesn't affect me in this day and age to believe there was a Jesus
Bronze age story telling as a whole can be very pick and choose
I think the problem Christianity has is trying to make it seem modern.
Religion no longer has the constant bickering need in the back of my head any longer.
I am at peace with the world and no longer require a reason or argument for why I believe the way I do.
I am content.
I am working towards my life goals, based on realistic steps.
I now have a structured philosophy that works for me.
I am composing music, and it has become so much more complex and beautiful.

After realizing that I'm actually moving out of my house in July 2009, I became more serious about the role I'm taking and did research around my area's universities just in case moving to Austin would be a bad idea.
So I planned out my full degree if I were to go to University Of Maryland.
Only problem is, the cost of living at UMD would be insane, and completely backwards.
Nothing I've looked at so far comes close to the cost of living in Austin.
Austin seems like the dream place, and my goal.
Chris and I have $3000 to make before July to get there. :)

I have a great semester coming up. In fact, I seem to be so psyched for it, I thought today was the first day of the semester and was about to leave. Checking my schedule, I realized its not for another week! I thought all last month that this was the day I go back too!

I have 10 classes per week (5 different ones)

Elements of Logic: "sound reasoning and logical thinking is studied, maths included" (Monday/Wednesday)
Piano i: yay! Piano lessons! (Wednesday)
High Altitude Balloon Project: Yay! NASA grant project! (Monday)
Descriptive Astronomy: the study of gravitation, stellar formation and evolution, the solar system, and planetary origins WOO!
Calculus II: I have the same teacher as my last semester, I love this guy!

I've been working on my computer project all this break. Been designing a really cool CPU. I'll get details up sometime.

Anyway, have a good day!

Just because an album is released doesn't mean I don't have a ton of songs still on the back burner, this one is finally turning out pretty nicely. It's a gangsta classy jazz beat: Traveling Ambulance

Welp, that's that! Stool is finally finished. That's nine months of work down the drain (stool? get it? ha ha ha). I kid, I kid, but yeah, I finished Danke on February 3rd, and now its November 22nd.
Yeesh. Time flies!

www.beefok.net

CONSUME, LISTEN, DOWNLOAD.

Broken Goat
Sometimes you try to succeed at something all day and fail.. FAIL MISERABLY, this song goes out to all those times. :)
This is a song I have to learn ON piano, I tells ya!

Has a kind of depressing off-tune piano that just can't seem to get in step with the beat, eventually the poor piano gets in sync, yay!
Goats, what are we gonna do wif em?

Beach Day!

As it gets colder, I had to make a song that would remind me of the beach! (Okay, not really, it's pretty synthesized, but it represents the beach in flowing waves, flickering sparkles in the water, and the laid back atmosphere)

Working on a new song. Doomed
I believe this is the "most" industrial song I have written to date.
Now if only I would make a game based around these tunes.. Hehe.

I'm made a piano piece last night. Sounds kind of like my "older" less "retro 8bit" style because its only percussion and piano. :)
I think I'm going to call it "Fish Hook", for no other purpose but by request by a listener!
Fish Hook

So, it's almost election day, who will win? Does it even matter? Does the human in the White House actually do things? More news at 9!

I don't care what belief or religion is elected into the white house, as long as it has no part in the decisions made in said white house.
No, I'm sure Obama isn't actually a muslim. But would it actually matter? No.
I can't take much more of this election bullshit, can we hurry it up and see whether or not my future in academia is shattered or not? God dammit.

Election day is like Groundhog day -- will the groundhog see his shadow? Will the destruction of any future of this nation happen?
Palin scares the shit out of me.

Okay, I haven't done enough oriental sounding jams, huh?
Tokyo Metro

I felt like making something Happy. Why do things that make me happy sound asian? I'm not sure why. Maybe internally I'm asian! I love chicken fried lice!
Rockabee

http://www.beefok.net/music/thisnight.mp3

Another work-in-progress song, its funny how things transfer directly to music, because this is how I feel!  :)